Frustrated

It’s Friday, yippee yee haw. I hate Fridays. That means a whole weekend I have to spend with him, and I don’t know, I just can’t do it anymore. Last night I was making dinner and stuff and the girls were all fighting and crying and I just lost it. I started crying myself. I wish I would have stuck with my original plan and just moved out when I said I was going to move out and be done with it. Instead I thought I’d try to make my family and my kids happy, and instead I’m miserable.

Last night after I got dinner on the table I had to run to the store to get something I needed for my food I had to make for work this morning. I had everyone sitting down to eat and grabbed my purse and keys to run out. He has a holy meltdown over it saying he’s leaving and bla bla bla. I was like, I’m just running to the store. What is your problem? It was ridiculous. He had the kids flipping out, me pissed off, and it was just a mess.

Katy’s costume came in the mail yesterday. It’s a Belle costume and he got it at Penneys. Of course she wanted to try it on as soon as she got it. I was putting it on her and caught site of the tag, $60. For a Halloween costume? Seriously? Rediculous!!! Wonder if he paid that mortgage yet.
In case ya couldn’t tell, I’m not in the best mood today. I didn’t sleep well last night because I kept getting woke up with stupid questions and then I guess I just had too much on my mind or something because I just couldn’t sleep, I don’t know. I’ve been spending a lot of time chatting with my friends the last couple days and just doing a lot of thinking, and I don’t know. Just trying to sort everything out I guess. It’s frustrating.