My Weekend

This weekend was just as I predicted…excessively long.

Friday it started as soon as I walked in the door. We were at each other’s throat and I guess it was my fault, I don’t know. I didn’t want to be there and I took it out on him. I don’t know I just don’t know what to do anymore or how to be. Saturday was more of the same. I took the girls to dance and then all of us went to meet my mom and my grandma at Fridays for lunch. Then we attempted to take the diva to get sneakers. She lived up to her name there, that’s for sure. We were there for over an hour just trying to find shoes for one child. God Bless the sales girl who waited on us because she went over and beyond for us and did it all with a smile on her face. I really hope she gets commission because she so deserves it!!! After that I had other places I wanted to go to get things taken care of but it was already almost time for the Borders party I told them I’d take them to. We were walking in and the Diva starts having a meltdown about her new shoes. I told him to take the other two in and I’d meet them in there. We get in there and the event beforehand wasn’t over so the twinners wanted to go and look at Webkinz, so I took them over…they didn’t have enough money for new ones, so we had a meltdown in the store. I was so frustrated with him, the shoe thing, and just life in general, that I told them all we were just going to go home and we did. The girls are still mad at me, but I just couldn’t do it. I went home and went to bed and tried to have a nice night after that, but failed miserably. He kept hanging on me and touching me and everytime I told him to stop he just got pissed off.

Yesterday was more of the same only my family was thrown in the mix. We went to my Mom’s and she started talking about the Disney trip. My heart just isn’t in it. He kept trying to talk about it even after we left my Mom’s and I basically said it’s not going to happen. He wasn’t real pleased, but I told him I was just being realistic. Then we were at my grams and I was trying to show off the girls’ dance show and she saw maybe two seconds and then went to pay attention to my cousins. I don’t know why I’m surprised. She’s always liked her step-grandchildren better. She’s pulled this crap since the day my first cousin was born, and she’s reminded me of what a screw up I am since the day I was born. I just wish I would have slept through all of yesterday. I could have gone without the day ever happening. Last night was more of the same of Saturday. Him touching me and making me want to disappear and getting pissed off when I told him to knock it off.

All weekend all I wanted to do was have it be Monday and be back at work, but now that I'm here, I'm really not feeling any better. Things are going wrong with accounts and my work schedule and it's just a Monday and I don't need a Monday right now...I'm sick of Mondays.